Today was much easier getting up and going for some reason. Yesterday I overslept for work, today I made it almost on time. The 3day weekend last weekend kicked my butt. I slept in too much. Im glad tomorrow is Friday. Im leaving town for the weekend. I have to travel to go pick up my daughter from her grandparents. She has been there for over a week now and I miss her crazy. Things are so quiet and boring when she is gone. My son is gone too so that makes it even more quiet and boring. He went to his fathers for a few days. I have to pack tonight and load the car. I have to deliver the dog to the vet to stay for the weekend. I would like to take her but she has just gotten too big to have in the car with a carload of people. She is better at the vet's im sure.
This will be the last weekend I have off until July. I start back up at my second job bartending. I am glad in some ways. However my boyfriend is NOT so happy. he will adjust.
Hope your day is good. It is raining where I am and is looking to be a gloomy day. :)

Good day all.. Well i have a scenario and I need some advice so I can give some advice. Let me set the scene. A couple has been together close to a year and half. Ups and downs.. typical relationship. I think trust has been an issue off and on. Lies and some rough spots. The couple has lunch one day and after Nikki drops off Bud at his work another fellow walks out and she speaks to him. Bud goes on into work and later calls her and wants to know how Nikki knew the fellow. She says he was friends with one of her guy friends and used to hang out with them. No biggie Bud hangs up. Later calls back and says he had spoke to the guy and then proceeded to ask questions about her relationship with the "friend" wanted to know if they had done anything. This relationship was years previous to Nikki's and Bud's relationship. Nikki maintains that they were friends and hung out. partying, summer fun times.. Nothing serious or major. Bud gets huffy and Nikki says well besides that it was years ago what does it matter. Nikki then says I am at work I will discuss this with you when I get home. What are you thoughts ??? Should Nikki be frustrated or upset that Bud is being this way ?? Why should past relationships or activities affect present ? Where do you draw the line when your partner doesnt trust you ?? OR constantly questions who you was with in the past or what you did in the past ??? I apprecaite any opinions you have to share.
THanks,
Kathie

Good morning all ? Did anyone watch The Shield last night ? I only caught bits and pieces. It has been the week from hell in my world. It all started Saturday night. I worked at my second job and my boyfriend called me at 3am while I was on my way home to come get him from jail. He had gotten stopped for DUI. He passed all test and actually blew lower than the limit. SO I dont know what will come of that. It just stresses me. I am soooooo sick of his immature actions. I care about him but I am about at a breaking point.. Where do you draw the line ? So then I guess I have just been harboring anger and it lead over into Monday and Tuesday cause he hasnt worked and he seems to be playing the poor pitiful me game. I dont play that. I have NO sympathy and I beleive one should take responsiblilty for their actions. I do mine. On a daily basis. Oh well. My son is graduating from 8th grade this week. I have been planning party, food, cake, gifts, and guests. He will be the big freshman next year. Im not sure Im ready for that. My daughter is only 9 and she thinks she should get to spend the summer with my parents about 2hours away. I know there is nothing wrong with it but I feel the empty nest fever setting in already.. I will be lost.. My son wants her too. :) Kids.
Well I just thought I would drop a line and vent a pinch. hope your day is good Ill hopefully drop by again soon.
Kathie

Well this morning was a slow starter, I overslept a tad bit and just couldnt get moving. I finally made it to work and my day has been moving in slow motion it feels like. I watched LOST last night it was good. It was a little intense and there was a couple times I was even shocked at events. It is one of those shows that unless you know the history somethings dont always make sense. ya have to follow it week to week. Im sure the season will start to come to a close soon. The Shield starts up in April though and there is a new one called The Riches on Fox I think I might try and get into. I dont get very many nights of TV cause by the time I get baths and homework done with the kids the last thing I have time for is TV. I usually have tons of laundry and Im pooped and I just got to bed too. Parenthood !! :) Me and the man had a small tiff last night mainly due to the fact he told one of his friends he thinks Im messing around on him. IM NOT!!!! When would I have time between him, two jobs, and two kids. PLEASE !!! He only thinks that cause I tend to get mad at him over work and money and he thinks we should still enjoy the bedroom activities YEAH RIGHT !! I just dont forget that easily. Call me selfish but I see things intertwined. It is a full cycle. If we are fighting about work and money then how can you be lovey with that person when you are angry at them ?? Well It is almost lunch here. Ill vent more later :) have a great day!!!

Well it is now after lunch and I must say the day is still a fairly good day. I finalized some details of the remodeling project I have going this weekend. Picked out flooring for bathroom, toilet, shower, and all that leaves is the faucets. carpet for stairs is still not in, but Im keeping my patience. Me and the man had a fairly calm intense discussion about bills and money again today. I hope I am getting somewhere or it is going to come down to him simply leaving and I made that clear today. He automatically jumps to there is someone else in the picture, which is not the case at all. I just feel that with all the stress I have in my life already I dont need another child to raise and maybe we are not meant to be afterall. We will see. Tonight should be a good evening I hope my show "LOST" is on. I am not fond of the new time but i suffer the morning after because I love that show. It is addicting to me. I think Jack and Sawyer run a close tie to my favorite characters. Anyone else get into that show ??? Well hope the day is good for all. Ill touch base tomorrow if not later. THanks

Well today seems to be starting off on a much better foot. I felt decent when I got up this morning and me and the man were getting along much better. I am totally not a morning person. I hate mornings. I just need to be avoided in the A.M. hours. My kids sometimes have the same problems. My day is just getting started. I am at work already. I have been here now for almost an hour. I have set a record two days in a row. I thought my coworkers were gonna fall out of their chairs when I walked in early today. Let's hope I feel this is a good day after lunch with the man.
Hope yours is a good one.
more later. :)

Well I just signed up for this because I need a release somewhere. I am in a very frustrating relationship right now and I am hoping to vent here and that it will help. Im not really sure where I got this idea but hopefully it was a good one. Any one that reads this please feel free to give me your objective honest opinion.
Let me set the scene for some. I was a single mom of two - 13yr, and 8yrs - Great kids for two years before I met this rather handsome "tim-mcgraw looking" young man. He and I hit it off great. We had alot in common. THings seemed good so we decided to try living together. I must admit we really didnt know each other that well. Do you really know anyone though til you live with them ??? I dont think so. Things went ok the first couple months. We both discovered we come from two different sides of the river. He is younger than me and his ethics of work are different than mine. I have worked two jobs for the past 6yrs. I work hard and put my children and paying my bills first. I beleive you dont quit a job til you have another one lined up no matter what. I beleive a relationship should be 50/50. Or the man should want to provide and care for the family. Well several of these things are not the same as he beleives. He started to jump from job to job. Some months barely covering if at all his share of the expenses. I must admit I started to get rather bitchy.. and demanding.. I cant tolerate a man that doesnt work or want to hold a job. Our goals are obviously different. This was just the beginning, little did I know. Furthermore, I begin to feel that he expects me to take care of him like my child. I have often been told im intimidating and way too independant, but I have always had to be. I do care about him and we have now been together for over a year and just when I think things are going smooth or he is starting to grow up the bottom falls out. I have had thoughts lately alot that it might be best that he move out and make it on his own and us go back to dating. Hahah How do you do that without ruining the relationship. I dont think you can. Is it possible to meet someone you love everything about except their money mangement skills or the lack of. I know they say you cant change someone and I know he is not going to change but how do you instill the want and need to have things and understand that you have to work in life to get them ???